rnot much new prom was the other weekend it was a good time had by all. school is gay i have three super huge projects due by the 23. other than that not much else

much love

mandy

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life's current state

well its now april prom and contest ore two and three weeks away. yeep so terrified of contest i get so nervous in front of judges. this year i have the pleasure to sing three songs one is a solo omg what was i thinking on that one, one is a group of five girls, and the last one is a duet with my zacie poo which will make me less nervous with him by my side that whole time. im all set for prom i got the perfect dress and shoes for it and zac's tux has been order. by the ways it on the 26th of april grand march is at 5 if you want and come see me all dolled up. schoolis just dragging on im ready to be done with highschool and move on to college and real life. although graduation itself kinda scares me on account that its the last really big thing for schoolnot sure if im ready for it yet. my grad party is the sunday of memorial weekend come and enjoy yourself further info will be given lata. well not really much else

im outie

mandy j

life

life is good so far we went to a knowledge bowl meet today and my team me zac brianna kelly and ben got our butts handed to us on a silver platter but its ok cuz we had some good times and a tastey lunch. school is good work sucks as usually and blah blah blah. not much else

imoutie

mandy j

so life is a riddle to be solved but the problem is you never get all the clues you want to solve it. you get a piece here and a peice there. friends may help but usually not or maybe that's just my crowd. you kinda just have to rely on yourself to figure out the pieces. you could however look to god but he is not always there to lend the clues that you need. so basically life is a mystery to be solved if you need the answers look to god but ask for what you can do for him not just to help out your sorry butt. he is always there you just have to ask and pray the right questions. those are my words for now.

im outie.

mandy j

one of those out loud thought things

so have you ever just sat down somewhere and thought about stuff. where your life is going, if a friends is making a bad decision about the guy she is with, what to do after highs school, your own relationship with a guy or girl. well i have had like a two and half week long think session while i had mono and was pretty much isolated from the world outside my house and what i learned from the news. and i have decided that when you are really sick with something like mono that is when you see who your true friends really are and who are the ones that are there but not so there if you know what i mean. the entire time i was sick i saw two people outside of my family my boyfriend Zac and a friend i have had since kindergraten, nikki. they didnt care that i was sick they just wanted to see me and didnt care if they got it. and i thank them for that seeing them made being sick a lot easier. however the first day i was back in school my other friend jessa welcomed me back with a great big hug which was nice. but as for brianna a friend i have told mostly everything to never really acted as if i was ever gone or that she even really missed me at all. a mean i never even got a call from her to see how i was.this makes me wonder how loyal she really is or if im just a taxi for her to get to town???? 

     have you ever meet a guy or girl that your friend was dating and you didnt really like him and no idea how to tell your friend without crushing them completely. yeah i currently have that delima. brianna or cookie as most know her is dating this guy named jesse fom amboy. that me and zac just met and we dont really like him very much. and they have only been together 5 days and they are acting like me and zac do. she is way too comfortable with him way to fast that this relationship is gonna go one of two ways it will move to fast and she will freak or she will realize that he isnt the guy she thought he was and freak out too. ulimately she will get hurt and come crawling and  crying to me again to pick up the pieces of her brokenness. this may sound mean but it has happene before with the last three guys she dated. it makes me kinda feel bad for her cuz she keeps choosing the wrong guys.

  well that is it for my vent session for today. i really got nothin else other then i finally caught up in all my classes at school. yay..

im outie much love

mandy j